Peace, Love, and Coffee

To justify the title of this post I'd like to direct your attention to a lovely verse that goes a little something like this:


...the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. -James 3:17

How wonderful to think that even in the middle of such busy days with calorie-burning, healthy eating, wanna-make-time-for-everyone mind sets we can count on all these qualities that seem fit only for a proverbs 31 women to enlighten us as only God can with his wisdom.

People have "aha" moments all the time and usually they're life changing and as I sit here typing this in my work uniform and my not-so-clean room with a cup of coffee I'm pleased to say that in the midst of my mess I feel it. That peace and pure loving goodness that verse talks about. At the end of a Monday like this God is still in control, not me. God is in charge of tying up all the lose ends, not me. I'm simply in charge of doing my part and accepting his wisdom so that I can keep my soul clean and pure for him.  So that I can rest in him. He will take care of the rest and do the things I cannot do. In the mean time I think I'll finish my cup of coffee, and enjoy his peace and love. And remember to enjoy his peace and experience his love and wisdom too, after all, tomorrow will worry about itself won't it? :) Wishing everyone a very good night sleep and rest!

I'm a Momma!!...Sort of

When I was little I had this notion, like any little girl, that someday I would be a mom. That was probably my biggest dream (besides being a true princess and getting married.) But my heart always reached out to kids that were orphaned, abandoned, or lonely. It's as if I sensed, even in my lack of knowledge about the world, that someday I would love to mother a child not of my own flesh and blood but in need of love. The memory of when these feelings took roots is hazy but this notion stayed with me as the years went on.

Now I am 21 and still feel the same. It's just right, it's who I am and I wouldn't want it any other way. Maybe someday I'll adopt but for now I figured supporting a sponsored child is a step in the right direction.

So with the help of a lovely organization called World Vision, who is absolutely adamant on helping the less fortunate, I was able to start sponsoring a little girl in Mexico. She's a two year old little angel named Berenice and I hope that as the years go by we can form a loving relationship even from a distance. And although she has her parents by her side it wouldn't hurt if someone else loved her too, right? <3 With that being said, I'm proud to announce to the world that as of July 15, 2013 I'm a momma!!!...sort of ;)

P.S You'll be hearing a lot more about her, I just can't help it she's so adorable!!
P.P.S Can you tell I'm in love?! EEEK!! <3

Writing...

Hello my lovelies, long time no talk! It makes me sad to think I could have gone so long without writing but Im back and here to stay, rest assured. There's something I have learned and it's that a passion should never go unfed. I miss this, I miss writing and the ability to express myself without filter. It's reassuring and at the same time therapeutic. Your writing tells people who you are but it presents only what you allow. It can create detailed pictures in peoples minds and build ideas and hopes or it can slice down dreams in just the space of a few words. Regardless, I'm back and here to write for quite a long time. Maybe even forever. Maybe :)

No Makeup, No confidence?

Recently it’s come to my attention people can have quite strong opinions when it comes to makeup and it being the month of love and dates and flowers I figured I’d tackle the subject head on since people get up close and personal and can really see what is or is not on your face.

On one side you have the girls who never wear makeup. And whatever the reason, they feel comfortable without it which is perfectly fine…until you start pointing fingers. Yes, you walk around looking completely natural and bare, but does that give anyone of us the right to call someone else out for making a different choice? Of course not! Sadly, there are many people that do this and it makes my heart sad. Nobody should feel less beautiful because we are all the same whether we cover or enhance what we’ve been handed. At the end of the day we are all dealing with our own battles and it would be very nice if we could take a moment of our day and get to know someone before we decide they’re “fake” for wearing something that could very well be the thing that makes them feel good.

Makeup was made to enhance features. To make us feel prettier than we already are, it’s an art integral to the beauty of women dating back to the Egyptian era of pharos and wearing it should be a choice that can be made without repercussions. I respect girls who wear makeup, like myself, but I also respect girls who don’t wear it. I am able to respect these choices because I believe I’m just as beautiful with or without makeup. I know that God loves me just the way I am and that the most important part is in me, not on me. The outside is simply a dim reflection of who I am inside and hopefully we can all have enough confidence in ourselves to not be offended by what others wear. Having said that, I hope this Valentine’s Day you do something to make yourself feel pretty inside and out whatever that may be. Sending lots of hugs and love to everyone out there, be you and that's more than enough! <3

Faith...

It's funny to think that we don't always get the answers we hope for in our prayers and sometimes it's especially important that just this once, just this time, they get answered...except they don't. And it's the biggest heartbreak ever. Where is the God of promises now? Why can't the God almighty who parted the red sea and raised men from the dead do me this one tiny miracle? I'm not asking for him to return the dead or even part a sea, I'm pleading for something personal that's close to my heart and now it's been broken and it seems like there's no reason I couldn't have what I wanted... except for there IS a reason and in the words of Steven Furtick himself, "God never wastes our faith. He never has, and He never will. How could we not trust him? Honestly, hasn't He already given us more than we deserve? Everything I have is a gift from Him to begin with. I didn't earn it, so why would I get in God's face, claiming to know what He should do with the blessings that don't belong to me in the first place? If he has promised, He'll deliver." And so what I can say for sure is that sometimes even though I don't understand why my prayer didn't get answered the way I wanted what is required of me is GREATER faith than that with which I prayed. My faith is not, and will not be wasted. And no promise from a God so loving is ever completely dead. Ever. So keep your faith alive, and watch your God come through time and time again :)

A girls day out...

 Me and my momma had a wonderful little girls day out this past Monday! I took her on a date to the seattle aquarium and i think she loved it! It rained a bit so when we got out it was the typical seattle weather every starbucks lover enjoys <3 We walked around looking at all the different anemones and learning how they live and what they feed off of. We saw otters and sea lions and also learned about sea stars and starfish...I even got her to touch one! Eek! Eep! Eel! Haha, we decided to end our day in the city with a trip to good 'ol Red Robins for brunchh with tea and that was all, just us girls in the city on a girls day out :)

My gift from the sea...

This is my gift from the sea, a shell that I did not find on the beach but if I put it real close to my ears I could make out the sound of waves crashing against the shore somewhere far off in a place I've never seen before. This shell was given to me by a friend four years ago. I used to wear it as a key chain all the time until I noticed a small chip in the side and since then have decided to retire it to the confines of a special drawer in my room where many other small things of sentimental value are kept. Once in a while when I feel like things can be too much I pull it out and listen... It's a wonder such a little thing like this can bring the peace of an entire ocean, isn't it? So I love my little gift from the sea and sense that I'll be keeping it for quiet some time to come :)